Friday, May 22, 2009

I'm Back

I'm back. It was a great trip. Yeah, ok, a little rushed at times. Interesting to be with different personalities on the trip. The teacher on this trip... well... he is... umm... - what to say? He likes to be on schedule. He can be loud. And I can't always read him well. I think he is nice. In fact, I know he is nice because I have seen him when he is nice, but... sometimes I forget. And when I forget, I get a little nervous and watch him carefully.

But I think he is nice. I don't think that when I see him get frustrated with situations or kids who insist on pushing limits. But then I remember when I see him dealing gently with kids who need gentleness.

Still, it was good to have on the trip another mom who is my friend who could laugh at the whole situation at times and tell me to relax.

It was a good trip, though. I enjoyed it. Nice to be with kids. Nice to see things. To eat because I was out of the stress and with people where I felt cared for. To swim, walk, run...

I ate more food than I would usually eat in a week, way more. Interestingly, I only gained two pounds. Happy about that. I think because we walked and ran so much. I even ran with the kids for their capture the flag game. I think I was supposed to sit on the sidelines with the adults... but... I like to play.

I enjoyed my time.

Now I am home. Met with silence. Met by kids delighted to see me and a husband who likely wished I wasn't home.

5 comments:

Sharon said...

I have been through some very trying years in my marriage to say the least. We went through a couple of separations, one lasting 3 yrs. So, I know what it's like to be in an unhappy marriage. My advice to most women is, when you look back some day, will you honestly be able to saythat you were totally without fault and that you had done everything you could for your relationship. You don't want to have to look back and have personal regrets. The book "Created to be His Helpmeet" has been a huge help to me and the ministry and magazines from No Greater Joy Ministries (nogreaterjoy.org). And most of all lots of prayer. May God be with you and help and guide you. And remember, nothing is too hard for God!

Becky Aguirre said...

I agree, you would want to say that you did everything you could for your marriage, but where exactly is that point? How much is enough? At some point, lines must be drawn for your own protection, for the kids' protection...I pray that God will be revealing those answers to you, for clear thinking, and wisdom. My heart breaks to hear of your pain and I am praying for you...

Shan in Japan said...

I will continue to pray for wisdom and protection. I wish I had advice to give, but I don't. So, I will continue praying.

Karis said...

I got a smile out of the part, "I think I was supposed to sit on the sidelines with the adults (during Capture the Flag)... but... I like to play." I think that's great. I bet the kids loved it too that you joined in, and it sounds like your son isn't "too cool" for that yet.

I'm so glad you got a little break. I know your mind continues to think but laughing with the other mom, eating, doing fun things, being away from a tense atmosphere (minus the scheduled teacher :-) had to have been great.

And now that you're back... well, I don't even know what to say except that I'm glad you had that time away.

Ellie said...

It was great to have time away. Yeah, the teacher is interesting, but he had to be scheduled and in charge - he was. He's nice, really.

I just find that after years of being yelled at by my husband, I tend to cringe easily around men.