Sunday, October 19, 2008

A Night Awake

Well, the news has been told to my husband by leadership. He blew up angry, and is still angry. He spent the night sending e-mails about to me everyone he knows, so I am expecting calls today from people I really didn't want to explain this to.

It's been a rough night, and I don't know that the day will get better. Pray for me, for endurance, for wise choices by the leadership, for wisdom and strength for the couple that my husband is with, and for a heart willing to listen.

5 comments:

Alan & Beth McManus said...

I'm so sorry. He's hurting and lashing out. You happen to be the easiest target. Don't lash back! Let God defend you. I know how hard that is. I'm sorry you have to go through this. I love you.

CA RN to Honduras Missionary said...

And so it begins - hopefully the healing process as he wraps himself around what he needs to do.

Becky Aguirre said...

It is much, much easier to point out other's faults than to face up to our own...and it started in Eden...things might get worse before they get better...hang in there! Healing and growth is a process, sometimes very slow. But I have faith that God is working in the deep places of his heart and yours as well. I, too, am so sorry that you are having to go through this and I will be on my knees for you today.

Cindy said...

Praying...
* for strength
* for Peace that passes ALL understanding
* Understanding of Who God is through all of this.

hugs...

Ellie said...

Thanks everyone. I am still crying, spent the whole church service crying, still shaking from listening to him last night.

I know only two things today - that I still stand before God, with faults, but forgiven and deeply loved, and that now is a time I need to keep my mouth closed and not defend myself and not talk.

It is very hard for me to do that. I actually work in words, in writing, and it is easy for me to quickly mount a strong defense. But God's honor will come in me honoring my husband even now, and that by refusing to answer accusations or explain questions right now. Outside of the small circle that knows, I can chose not to talk.

Pray for the kids. At different ages, some know little, and my oldest knows much more, and they hurt. They all, though, have been praying for their daddy. Pray that I am a good mother to them through this.