Wednesday, October 15, 2008
I was trying to think of an analogy that would describe my life recently.
I began to say to people that I need to get off this roller-coaster that I am on - this vicious cycle which is not improving. I didn't know that getting off that roller-coaster would mean getting on another.
This is definitely different. The twists, the sudden drops, the fast turn arounds all very different from what I was used to. With my old roller-coaster, it was familiar. Still difficult, still painful to go through, but I had become so accustomed to the ride that I could have provided commentary in route.
The new one is a total surprise to me. I took a look at it before I got on, and am vaguely aware of some of the challenges and turns in it, but it's still taking my breath away.
Our leadership is now listening and taking action. Those actions are not going to be easy for us, but I believe they are done in wisdom and love and I hope for God's working. It is just difficult, and I am struggling. What is needed is what I said was needed to clear out the river - repentance.
We can pray for that. And for the ability to endure the ups and downs of my right now.