I woke to the sound of the door and the kid's voices answering it. Thankfully, they did not wake me and I recognized the quiet voice of my friend. She quickly took over getting the kids dressed and fed. The smell of frying eggs drifted up to my room.
But I slept, only conscious enough to know that they were safe and being cared for.
An hour later, I woke up again and looked at the clock. It was morning. It was past morning "over there". My heart sank...
"God, I thought You said...."
I waited until I heard the door shut as the kids went out with my friend before I threw myself back down on my bed and sobbed....
I cried and cried.... sobbing from the depths of my heart....so disappointed... "Why God? Why? I was so sure You said to ask for this morning! Why did You have us ask only to mock us now?!"
And I sobbed until the tears ran out. My heart was broken and all hope disappeared.
When my friend came back, I asked her to stay to man the phones. I told her only three people were people to wake me up for, but for everyone else to tell them I was sleeping. I planned to sleep the day away, and transition into long term mode...
I lay my head down on my pillow in tears. I was so tired! My eyes closed... then they popped open...
Wait. Maybe I should phone this one person - he will at least know what happened today.
So I dialed his number...
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