I figured out what I am, but while it is an accurate description, it is not that complimentary. I am a cow. Or, if I don't like that, I could be a goat or a sheep. Perhaps an alpaca? Maybe an antelope sounds better?
But I am much like an animal that chews its cud. It is important that I know that about me because it helps me understand how I work. I tend to take in situations at the time, but then process the emotions and all of them later. Chewing the cud - um, later on.
Right now that is sort of where I find myself. Been through something that on the outside, you would say it is over, and I would tend to agree with you. But I haven't processed it yet. I will take time to do that - to bring up what happened and carefully process the emotions and feelings. Only then will I be willing to go on and be done.
It is just who I am... a... well, I like the sound of antelope best... except for the pictures of antelope being caught by lions that we always see on National Geographic. Perhaps I better just be a sheep after all.
So, right now, I am chewing my cud. Thinking over and processing the emotions of an event that happened awhile ago. But there is some peace to sitting and quietly processing.