This is the difficulty of this blog and being anonymous. There is only so much I can say. Frustrating at times.
But it is enough to say that I am waiting. My husband is out of contact right now, and I hope to hear from him safely tomorrow mid-morning. He phoned quickly to say he loves me before he went off the radar again.
I miss him. I sit here tonight wide awake now. I was going to drift off just now, but now I am awake. I'll have to make a conscious choice to lay it down once again and lay my head down in peace. It isn't always easy, but it is what God asks of us - to trust Him. Back home too many people assume that we trust God because He makes things work out good. He never says so. He says to trust Him because He is good. There is a difference there.
So trusting Him, I'm going to sleep. But if you are up, pray for my husband to come back "on radar" tomorrow safely. You see, I kind of like him now, and would like to keep him.